By Tonja Condray Klein©10/31/2024

Romans 1:16 says, “For I am not ashamed of the Gospel of Jesus Christ (Messiah), for it is the power of God to salvation for everyone who believes, for the Jew first and also for the Greek” to show the given pattern all Christians are mandated to use for evangelism since the Jewish Disciples of Jesus Christ began sharing the Gospel over two thousand years ago. It seems this concept has lost its understanding by those who claim to be ‘Christians’ or followers of Christ in present day ministries. The first believers were Jewish! Gentile Christian believers need to NOT leave out Jewish people they know when it comes to sharing the message of Jesus Christ as Savior of the world AND also their Messiah, Yeshua! This reality seems to have been pushed away by Christian mindsets completely now. Are we NOT reading the Bible?

Finding the one Jewish Ancestry link in my own personal ancestry has redirected my Christian mindset more towards understanding this lack of historic context, not only to the world in general but more importantly to those that claim to be part of the church of the Lord Jesus Christ. Why have the church leaders over the past few centuries pulled away from sharing the Gospel with their Jewish brethren? Do we even understand Romans 11:12-36, that those not of Jewish faith known as Gentiles were “grafted into the vine” of Israel as the Chosen people of God Almighty, Creator of the universe and ALL of us once we accept Jesus Christ as Savior Who is also Yeshua, the Jewish Messiah? This is the reality of how those two Faiths interconnect and complete the body of the Lord Jesus Christ here on Earth in 2024!

When I began writing my Christian Speculative Fantasy Novel Series named “Rebirth of Eirinth” with Book 1 as BREAKING THE SHACKLES and Book 2 as TREADING THE PATH, I intended to reintroduce this concept to all of the Christian church and Jewish believers in Christ in the fiction setting of my Eirinth to try to get them all to understand how this works spiritually on Earth. As the Christian church needs revival to begin, we need to follow the current Jewish believers in Christ and their resounding message of sharing and uniting as the complete church that includes the gifts of the Holy Spirit being used again like the believers in the book of Acts were and as biblically stated in the Holy Bible for ‘End Times’ Revival that has begun with the Jewish believers and NEEDS to be EMBRACED by the Gentiles NOW!

What is everyone afraid of happening? I accepted and received the Baptism of the Holy Spirit with the evidence of Speaking in Other Tongues when I was thirteen years old! The gifts make a believer feel the touch of God Almighty in a way that transcends any doubt. The Holy Spirit gave me gifts He used for Messages in Tongues and Interpretations of Tongues to be given during church services for His people and as a sign to unbelievers too. That IS one of the issues for the church of the Lord Jesus Christ in 2024 and forward. Why do you think that the young people are so drawn to fantasy movies? They feel powerless in this world, and the church has taken away the only Spiritual Power of the Holy Spirit! We should be TEACHING THEM how to let the Holy Spirit HELP THEM to get through this world and SHARE JESUS!

The Complete Church of the Lord Jesus Christ needs to be realized and accepted as the way to allow the Revival of the Christian church in America and around the world! Preachers like Jewish Christian Sid Roth and Egyptian Christian Michael Youseff have been proclaiming the all-inclusive Gospel of Jesus Christ in many places Christian groups seem to avoid, especially with the current global conflicts. Then again, those conflicts could be exactly where the Gospel of Jesus Christ could unite not only Jewish brethren, but Arabs and Gentiles too by seeing how the Power of Jesus Christ is being used in supernatural miracles that might lead to accepting the Savior and Messiah that EVERY person needs for Eternal Salvation to happen, even for those lost souls under extraordinary circumstances that could be saved if they will believe.

While Israel needs to be able to protect themselves from radical terrorists, the Power of the Holy Spirit can break through any shadow or evil influence if the Church of the Lord Jesus Christ will begin becoming what I recently read that Gentile believers should be: Spiritual Israeli Warriors from being grafted into that vine to use Spiritual Warfare Prayers in the supernatural as Israel fights physically there! Israel needs SIGNS as the Bible states would be needed to reach not only the Jewish Nation but the lost tribes in other nations like China too. It might sound drastic, but the first Church in Roman times HAD TO BE to affect their world then. While we’re seeing an increase of hatred towards Israel, another movement against Christians worldwide is happening too. We need to let the Holy Spirit Power of God REACH THE LOST NOW!

My Kouken fighters in Eirinth are based on the Jewish Nation and have gifts they are born with to fight demons to protect the normal people, but they also need the Bengosha fighters with their gifts that were given to them by Faith in my version of Jesus Christ in that world as Tenrai Daystar. Together they create the complete Eirinth Fighters by allowing the True Element (Holy Spirit) to give them the gifts needed to cast out the demons. This was meant to be used by churches to reach the young people as a witnessing tool, but the concepts I mentioned before has left these concepts lost too right now. I’m hoping this will get through to some people and have them seek the Savior to find the gifts to give them more abilities to reach those in their personal harvest field of lost souls. Jew, Gentile, and every other person NEEDS JESUS CHRIST!

I respect other people’s rights to their religions, but I also know personally that Jesus Christ as the Savior of the world and Messiah is the ONLY answer to lost humanity. I love ALL people and want to share with them even if they are in other religions since they need to be REACHED with the TRUTH and LIFE-CHANGING POWER of Jesus Christ that will fill that empty space in their being that they are trying so hard to do, but only Jesus ever will. It hurts my heart that so many churches try to reach ‘certain people or types’ and walk away from all the others. THAT IS WRONG! ‘Whosoever’ means EVERY SINGLE PERSON can accept Jesus Christ (Yeshua) as Personal Savior and Messiah to find that missing piece that nothing else can complete your heart, soul, and Spirit with since this is the Full Reconnection to the Divine.

Since biblical prophecies are being fulfilled like never before, believers in Jesus Christ need to be REACHING like never before with the Gospel of Jesus Christ and Yeshua HaMashiach to reach ALL! The Complete Church of the Lord Jesus Christ needs to include the believers of Yeshua HaMashiach too so we can see that spark of Revival to begin around the world before the Rapture of the Church happens and the Great Tribulation begins. Seeing the same countries being mentioned in Revelation and Jeremiah match with those that attacked Israel in 2023 is an eye-opening FACT. We don’t know WHEN the Rapture will happen, but we know in WHOM we need to believe in order to escape the twenty-one judgments that WILL destroy so much until Jesus/Yeshua returns to save the people not worshipping the Beast!

This is not a myth. This is not a hallucination. This is not a religious tactic. THIS IS SPIRITUAL REALITY. I want every single person reading this to examine your heart, consider accepting Jesus Christ as Personal Savior, Lord, King, God Almighty and Yeshua HaMashiach now and ALWAYS to be saved from the coming storm on the horizon that’s something we need Supernatural help to either get through or escape from experiencing. No other religion has a way out that won’t damn your soul to an everlasting Hell. YOU are the ONLY one to choose which path you take. It’s done as far as Jesus Christ goes since He said, “It is finished.” His blood shed for humanity’s Salvation is a FREE GIFT that you can receive if you just ask Him. As Christians we need to offer to pray this in Love to any person of faith too.

“Father God of Creation, I come to You in the name of Jesus Christ the Savior and Yeshua HaMashiach the Messiah to ask that you forgive me of my sins that are present at birth because our human blood line being infected. I believe Jesus is the ONLY Son of God, born of a virgin, sinless at birth since His blood line was from God the Father, predestined to die on the Cross at Calvary for our sins if we will simply believe He paid the price that we never could. Lord, help me to reach as many with Your Love and Promise of New Life as I can from this point forward in the name Jesus Christ/Yeshua HaMashiach as part of the complete church promised for the ‘End Times’. Help me to fight as the Spiritual Israeli Warrior in Supernatural Prayer for Your Chosen people and to reach others to be grafted too, Amen!”

The malaise that has overtaken the Christians in America especially is SPIRITUAL WARFARE! Satan is trying to keep us from voting to get in the administration that will protect Israel and the American people… LEGAL American people! This is a reality that EVERY SINGLE PERSON needs to be aware of happening RIGHT NOW! I don’t care what denomination you are, we ALL NEED TO VOTE and we need to SUPPORT THE ISRAELI PEOPLE since we are also part of them as soon as we accept Jesus Christ as Savior since He is ALSO the Messiah and grafts us into the vine of God Almighty’s Chosen People! We DO NOT REPLACE THEM; WE JOIN THEM in God’s Blessings and Promises! We do have our own pathway, but the revival and Jewish leaders preaching Jesus as Yeshua that He is will BLESS US ALL!

Pray against this Spiritual Attacks on Christians in America and around the world! This is all related to the End Times whether we want to accept it or not. THIS IS REALITY! We ALL need to read the Biblical Prophetic writings, see the news for real-time updates, and then KNOW that Jesus Christ is STILL in Control even when it feels like it’s all going to implode. WE MUST ACT! WE MUST VOTE TO PROTECT US & ISRAEL! WE NEED TO UNDERSTAND! This is a timely matter that we MUST PAY ATTENTION TO BEFORE TOO LATE! We Vote this coming week, or we have already, but I’m praying that ALL BELIEVERS IN JESUS CHRIST AS SAVIOR will listen to HIS VOICE and VOTE! OURS & ISRAEL’S LIVES MAY ALL DEPEND UPON IT RIGHT NOW! Please VOTE YOUR FAITH NOW!

Read the book by Sid Roth that helped me see what we as the Christian church are missing and need to do too for the worldwide revival to begin for ALL BELIEVERS in Jesus Christ. Even if you don’t understand, please try to read these two books, one from Sid and the other from Jonathon that can help us ALL see the TRUTH Christ is trying to show!

Jonathan Kahn’s Book is ALSO something that will help you understand what happened related to what is going on right now and what we need to be looking out for and doing to get through this and reach as many as we can for Jesus Christ as Savior, Lord, King, God Almighty, Creator, and the Jewish Messiah Yeshua HaMashiach!

VOTE FOR AMERICA! VOTE FOR FREEDOM! VOTE FOR TRUMP/VANCE! VOTE, VOTE, VOTE! TK:)

By Tonja Condray Klein©10/03/2024

Yes, I have been pointing this out for several years now, but due to recent events and prophecies being fulfilled at an astronomical rate, I wanted to just bring this to the attention of everyone who can read this. Jesus Christ IS Coming. I don’t know when, but I know we are in the time. While it was posited by a Jewish Believer that due to the change in the calendar it might be in 2029, I also believe it could be sooner. While I believe the “No man knows the day or the hour” reference by Jesus Christ to His apostles could be a hint and nod to the actual period of time, it might not be this year. I just want to once again exclaim the FACT that Jesus Christ is going to come back ‘in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye’ at ANY given time. It would just seem something He would do during the Holy week as a sign to Israel.

We see more than one Jewish Christian ministers trying to point to how the biblical times are playing out in these days according to their Jewish scriptures and Gentile Christian scriptures. I haven’t seen this unusual movement happen in my lifetime in a way that brings the Jews and Gentile believers together like never before, and that MEANS something is on the horizon in a way that just Gentile Christians couldn’t accomplish. WE NEED EACH OTHER TO BRING ABOUT THE LAST GREAT REVIVAL BEFORE JESUS COMES! Now, could this happen by the end of Rosh Hashanah 2024? I don’t know, but the Christian Holy Bible says to be WATCHING AND PRAYING! Are you? This recent rise around the world in Anti-Semitic hatred is NOT an anomaly.  As a Christian believer I LOVE my Jewish believers in Messiah!

Can’t people see how both Christian and Jew are HATED? WE SERVE THE SAME GOD ALMIGHTY! Jesus Christ is the Jewish Messiah AND the Christian Savior of the world! God the Father had to let Israel refuse His Son Jesus Christ so He could die on the Cross of Calvary FOR ALL, BOTH JEW AND GENTILE! This was NOT some knee-jerk reaction by the One God of Creation; THIS WAS THE PLAN – Jesus Christ Crucified from the FOUNDATION OF THE WORLD! When Yom Kippur happens this year, I will celebrate Easter again! Jesus Christ IS the Messiah Savior for the ENTIRE WORLD IF YOU BELIEVE – Jew, Gentile, Muslim, Buddhist, Hindu, Wiccan, or any other faith can choose to accept Jesus Christ as the Son of God, Messiah, and Savior of the world if you simply believe He died in your place!

I respect the right for any group to have their religion and won’t be mean to you as a person because of it. I simply KNOW by reading the Holy Bible while comparing it to world history and various religions that Jesus Christ is the ONLY One to give His life in sacrifice for our human sin that happened when Adam and Eve fell from Grace by disobeying the ONE Rule on Earth – don’t eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. This might have been instated because God Almighty ALREADY KNEW we would since scripture says Jesus was the answer for that ever since “Let there be Light!” was spoken by the Triune Being known as God the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit of Creation. Yes, there are other writings that give different names and ways, but the Judeo-Christian texts match with what is manifested as reality now.

In my research for my book BEFORE ADAM: A PROPOSITION OF POSSIBILITY I have studied how the other creation stories merge with that of Judeo-Christian Creation except for the most important aspect – humanity’s fall from Grace. THAT is a sticking point to the WHOLE THING since it means that each person needs a Savior for their sin they inherited in their bloodline from Adam and Eve. Unfortunately, even though given the commandments to tell us what NOT to do, we still seem to do it without even realizing that we NEED SOMEONE to fill in the gap of our inability. If we truly try to see the amazing LOVE of God the Creator of all has for us then we can SEE that HE was willing to DIE FOR US instead of living WITHOUT US. Satan, fallen angel Lucifer wanted to damn as many of us as he could for revenge.

Ezekiel 28:16 refers to the cherub guardian Lucifer as having been filled with great wrath in connection with the ‘trade among the nations’. In the beginning there were NO nations until much later, so could this have happened in direct relation to the beings BEFORE ADAM such as Neanderthals or Denisovans? That is one of my hypotheses with the new book I’m writing to reach scientific-minded people who need Jesus too. Regardless, we know Adam and Eve sinned, an d God had to begin laying the framework of sin being ‘covered’ by a blood sacrifice until Jesus Christ completed the FULL sacrifice when He died on Calvary once and FOR ALL. The fact that He KNEW as the pre-incarnate Christ that He would have to do that for us, and STILL CAME TO DO IT should show how the heart of God Almighty the Creator for all of us.

As I have some Challah bread, corned beef, latkes (because I need them), and apple fritters I will be celebrating the Old Covenant by Abraham (my 101^st great-grandfather) and the New Covenant through David (84^th great-grandfather) that was related to Joseph, the legal father AND Mary, the blood mother of Jesus Christ that I am now a joint-heir by HIS blood shed on Calvary so that by Grace and through Faith I could be saved! It’s not an ancestry thing, but that also gives me an understanding of HOW all of this is PROVEN through HISTORY of the KNOWN TEXTS that didn’t begin being written until around 3300 B.C. The Holy Christian Bible ALSO says that looking at the sum of creation in the world with its intricacy and indefinable attributes that if we don’t accept Jesus Christ as Messiah Savior, ‘we are without excuse’.

Please read Romans 8, especially verses 38-39 in the King James Version and the NLT. Please see the reality of this Divine Creation that was lost from what Satan did. Please KNOW that we can ONLY reclaim this by accepting Jesus Christ as Messiah Savior to be restored to our original standing with God Almighty the Father through Faith in the Blood of Jesus Christ the Son, and with help from the Holy Spirit with the Gifts that have been given if we will JUST RECEIVE THEM! THIS IS ELEMENTARY! Satan deceived humanity and has been since the beginning as revenge for something we don’t really know that had happened BEFORE ADAM. I’m willing to believe in Jesus Christ as my Personal Savior no matter what had happened BEFORE ADAM. I’ve seen TOO MUCH PROOF of His Existence in my own 52 years!

You can make this Rosh Hashanah become your time of Yom Kippur “Day of Atonement’ that is coming up soon by accepting Jesus Christ as your Messiah, Savior, Lord, King, and God. Before too late, please give Him the key to your heart like Eric Champion’s song “Endless” says that I shared before that you can get on iTunes so He can open the lock to your heart as you pray, “Heavenly Father of Creation, I come to You in the name of Your Son, Jesus Christ. I ask You to forgive me by the Blood sacrifice on Calvary for my sins. I believe Jesus rose again so I could be restored to You. I ask to be given the Gifts you want me to use for You to reach others. I give my life to You as You had Jesus give His for me. In the name of Jesus Christ, Yeshua HaMashiach, I pray. Amen!” REJOICE IN YOM KIPPUR ON 10/12 AND TODAY!

Here are links to some songs that I adore that remind me why I adore Jesus Christ as Savior, Messiah, Lord, King, and God Almighty of Creation: “Endless” by Eric Champion, “Yeshua HaMashiach” by Scott Wesley Brown, “Over Me” by White Heart, “Jesus Never Fails” by Truth, “Thousand Things” by Disciple, and “Reflection” by DMB Band just as a few that all but one are on iTunes for sale since I support the artists and their ministries. If you can’t afford to buy, most are on YouTube to listen to for free too since we all want people to know Jesus Christ as the Personal Savior more than anything. I suggest you get a Christian Holy Bible in King James Version and/or NLT to find out more about Jesus who knows ALL about you and has been waiting for you for all time. Listen to “Endless” again and know He means you!

Lyrics By Tonja Condray Klein©06/25/2024 then Rev©07/16/2024 ~ Still working on melody ~

Verse 1: Lies meant to overwhelm truth, Hatred to poison minds, Plans to destroy all that’s good, With power the reason why, Some people are barely living, Hardships are way too much, We used to be the free and brave, But too many are out of touch

Bridge: We need full restoration, Since there’s a better way, Trump can make us great again, So American greatness stays

Chorus: Others can’t understand him, Or why he’s still so bold, They think his words are just mean, They’re just deaf to his tone, His actions are for the helpless, His anger over those they’ve scorned, His revenge will be his success, And they have been forewarned, They might try to break him, They might drag him down, But they can’t make him get lost, Freedom’s cause he has found, They hate what we all stand for, Yet think he stands alone, But he will fight for all of us, His strength’s not just his own!

Verse 2: The American dream needs revived, The American spirit reborn, The only way is to do your part, Raise your voice in VOTE form, Don’t let others fool you, Their promises are in vain, Give our country back its heart, And let our Freedom reign

Bridge: Yes, this is a battle, He’ll fight for me and you, Let’s VOTE our marching orders, Then we can see this through

Chorus: Others can’t understand him, Or why he’s still so bold, They think his words are just mean, They’re just deaf to his tone, His actions are for the helpless, His anger over those they’ve scorned, His revenge will be his success, And they have been forewarned, They might try to break him, They might drag him down, But they can’t make him get lost, Freedom’s cause he has found, They hate what we all stand for, Yet think he stands alone, But he will fight for all of us, His strength’s not just his own!

By Tonja Condray Klein©06/09/2024

I watched the BBC version of the book 1984 – NINETEEN EIGHTY-FOUR by George Orwell after reading the book again. I’d never seen any film adaptation before, but if I’d thought the book was frightening to read then I should’ve known any of the live action would be even more disturbing. The problem is that in 2024 I’m seeing that we have veered off our path of personal freedom to finally give into our own ‘Big Brother’ in reality! I used to trust the ones we vote into government when I was younger and thought that America had fought past the Authoritarian, Communist, Marxist, and Socialist groups influencing or trying to take over our government since we’d learned from our past and had been trying to implement more balances to stop anything like that from happening. Any of us who did think that were VERY wrong.

I won’t point to any single event that should have alerted anyone my age. The eighties were just the recovery from the seventies, and then the nineties were time to celebrate our country and prosperity. Two thousand was a turning point in technology even more than in the past thirty years then, but we were so used to our ease of life with further developments, we never thought to look at the growing power some groups were acquiring at our own expense. Do any of us right now? I’m not sure how many are observing the signs but still not willing to give up amenities that they feel they’ve earned from going up in status, position, or power. As upper Middle Class goes up and lower Middle Class falls down a notch then that means the upper lower class is getting even more crowded and the lowest lower class suffers like slaves or maybe worse.

What does that mean for regular hard-working Americans? It puts ALL of us closer to becoming the slaves of the Upper Ruling Class who are trying to take away any resistance to whatever government type they are trying to replace our Constitutional Democratic Republic with to then become ACTUAL dictators in name and actions. THAT is coming if WE THE PEOPLE fell asleep! Watching the ending of the movie adaptation of the book, I felt so dejected about Winston and Julia who both lost each other when ‘Big Brother’ tore them apart to get them to betray each other, lose all their reasons to fight for freedom, and were indoctrinated AGAIN. I shook my head and thought, “How could they give in and not fight?” I then thought about what could be used against ME – medicine, family, and Faith. It’s scary how easily it could happen.

What about you? As a Christian who has believed since I was eight and will be fifty-two in September, I’d like to think my faith in Jesus Christ as Savior, Lord, King, and God Almighty could keep me from denying Him for any reason. I can only hope and pray it never comes to that for me since I already have a problem keeping my anger from coming out over regular daily frustrations. As to ‘Big Brother’, right now I’d like to take a big political gun and shoot every ‘follower’ that would try to take my rights away from me as a Christian American, but most of those we know on sight are only the pawns for those with the actual power. I think most of those who feel as I do also know we are waiting until we have no choice but to fight or give into the growing despotism. I hope I’d be brave enough to stand up even if I’d die fighting.

This might sound really scary to some who have never read or seen the BBC movie, but as things get crazier and more unlawful in America that used to be the Land of the Free and the Home of the Brave, I think each person should ask his or herself how much is too much to take from corrupt politicians? I’m not talking about the person just indicted either but the ones who orchestrated the most dishonest use of the American legal system EVER done to date! Disagree with me all you want, but I call it as I see it, and since I have READ A LOT of History, I think I have enough common sense and intelligence to see it for what it is and call it out for what it was used to do. America is on the brink of losing FREEDOM completely, but if people don’t stop giving into the lies from the news being blathered all day then AMERICA will end!

Do you have any concept of how many Gen-Z-ers know NOTHING about REAL HISTORY? Diluted and lying information is indoctrinating their generation to ready them to become complacent to allow this political change to reach completion. Gen-X and even Gen-Y (Millennials) had some History taught to them without replacement information, but I’d bet the majority of Gen-Z know relatively NOTHING that is TRUE. Since I was going to be a History teacher at one point in my life, this makes me want to sob while I pull out a theoretical computer machine gun to destroy ALL the lying digital text books in existence. OH, HOW I WISH! Media also LIES EVERY FREAKING DAY! Freedom of the Press was meant for Americans to be told FACTS, not to let one party control every single narrative of all the situations in life.

I’m a Conservative Independent since both parties seem to have the same kind of turncoats in them. It can be hard to vote when you’re voting for almost the same party no matter which side that is. That is being done to BLIND US. Each side gets a bit of what they want so they give a bit of what the other wants as long as the people stay ignorant of it so all of their power remains intact, much like what ‘Big Brother’ did in the same exact way. Trump was the outsider to see that a disparity needed rectified and decided to act. THAT is his real ‘crime’ that both sides are working against to stop him from doing what REAL Americans want him to do – END THE DESTRUCTION OF AMERICA! Almost all of those politicians make promises they don’t keep, but Trump fulfilled ALL BUT ONE that the rest of government stopped.

For years Americans have watched as LIE UPON LIE has been fed to us as those with money seem to get richer and those that are poor seem to get poorer. Those in the middle had two ways to go – decide to pony up to the ruling class and surrender your individuality for their plurality OR maintain allegiance to FREEDOM and try to just hunker down to be ignored if possible… even if you put up op-eds to point out the TRUTH to others. Without having much money keeps you from being noticed. Who cares what Tonja from Ohio says anyway? Hopefully those reading this now, whether you agree or not, and you’ll think about all of this now. If you haven’t read 1984 – Nineteen Eighty-Four by George Orwell, you can get it at library for free (if they haven’t removed it yet). IT’S AMERICA’S FUTURE IF WE DON’T STOP IT!

You can let the politicians spin their narratives and give into the lies they spout out of their mouths OR you can READ and learn their playbook to counter it and SAVE OUR COUNTRY! Anyone who HAS read book could possibly understand what I’m warning everyone about that is being put into motion so the same system will be in perpetual power that will have the ability to keep rewriting history DAILY so people remain unaware of what USED to be reality as they are being DENIED everything they should have on a daily basis because ‘Big Brother’ knows better. Their ‘Big Brother’ NEVER KNOWS BETTER, AMERICA! THAT is why all of the failed governments have same playbook to desensitize citizens to the point they will never be able to reclaim relationships or be truly FREE from their complete brainwashing!

Have American citizens already been so brainwashed and desensitized by political news that seems to be ongoing propaganda like Russia and China? Since they love throwing this in their claims towards conservatives, like evil Nazis? I tell you right now, three men in my family fought in World War II and one died, so when you accuse those of us wanting to keep our God-given rights and Constitutional American Freedom of being one of those damnable bastards that need to stay in Hell then those are fighting words that could lead me to take a baseball bat to anyone who hurls those at me! How Dare YOU!? You lying sacks of crap need to go crawl back to your pigpen and leave the LAW-ABIDING AMERICAN CITIZENS ALONE! While it might already be too late for America, I WILL FIGHT TO NEVER BECOME JULIA!

If you haven’t read the book, get it. It is absolutely frightening how it compares to where America is heading. If you can’t read then go to YouTube Link for 1984 – BBC and watch it. It doesn’t end well at all and had me begin writing this op-ed. If we keep going down the path we currently seem to now be on then THAT is our future! With the blood shed alone in WWII that outcome would be an atrocity and something that those who allow it to happen without any kind of a fight will be held accountable for someday. I refuse to be one of those. The ones not willing to be either might be able to turn the tide before we do go under this wave of indoctrination that could end America. “Freedom is only one generation away from extinction,” according to President Ronald Reagan, and I agree with him seeing what’s happening right now!

Is that terrifying premise already being proven in America in 2024? I hope and pray to God Almighty in the name of Jesus Christ with the power of His Holy Spirit that it won’t be this year! I’m trying to put up my opinions everywhere I can to try to bring attention to these happenings that some might be completely unaware of for several reasons that might not even be their own faults. Trusted institutions that used to be respected have now been hijacked from us, and if you just can’t see that yet then you might not realize how close our own networks of every kind have been taken over by those we can’t assume will give FACTS. To them, there are none, but THEIR interpretations are what WE need to know as FACTS for their machinations AGAINST KEEPING FREEDOM for the American people at ANY and ALL cost to ALL OF US!

How many Americans are willing to do whatever it takes to keep your Personal Freedoms? Even if you are with a different religion, background, race, political side, or a self-defining individual you think the present ruling class will just accept, then you need to read the book or watch 1984 – BBC Production that has actor Peter Cushing from STAR WARS to see how those kinds of leaders finally demand that a citizen lose whatever you are most protective of keeping to have you become a useful slave to their political agenda. This is an ongoing brainwashing that can finally lead to the physical torture used to reshape your mental ability that is done by all of the governments I’ve mentioned. No American citizen should be put into ANY mental modifications of ongoing brainwashing or physical torture! WE MUST FIGHT THAT!

By Tonja Condray Klein©04/27/2024

Mommy, I miss you! I know you are no longer in pain or worried about everything, but I miss you so much and wish I could do so many things that we didn’t get to do at least one more time: eat a Whopper Jr., watch all of the movies we love, listen to the record albums we would sing with, discuss history and the past, laugh together over everything that made us glad to be together, and say goodnight in person instead of on the recorded last time we did now recorded on my iPhone. “Goodnight Sam” from you and “Goodnight Ralph” from me will never be spoken here live again for us.

I will be getting a Whopper Jr. today and a strawberry cake if I can, listen to some songs as I make room in our living room for things we must keep to be reminded that you loved us all with amazing strength and made every single one of our family better with your Christian Faith, never-failing love, uncompromising sense of right and wrong, and an ability to forgive even when any of us were being thoughtless or worse. Mommy, you taught us to always be there for each other even after getting angry over something stupid. Mommy, you were an example we all need to try to be.

Mommy, I have found so many things that you kept from us that are like a treasure trove of our lives. You valued each of us and tried to keep a part of each in pictures and even things we created for you if you could. I was astounded and am still going through everything in your former home that is going to be someone else’s in another week or so. All these bits of us are a reminder that what we did MATTERED TO YOU! I can only hope we each showed you near the end how much all of your care MATTERED TO US! I hope you see all of the good things here from the balcony of Heaven.

HAPPY 93^rd BIRTHDAY 04/27/2024, MOMMY! I’m sending spiritual hugs to you while praying that our family already there are giving you so many that you are somehow getting one from each of us here through them too. My Belva Riverside will continue to live in my world of Eirinth for as long as I can write the story and just like you are living a new life in Heaven now, waiting for all of us to rededicate our lives to Jesus Christ as Savior to use our gifts until you come with Him in spirit to be raised first to join us in the clouds and go to safety before the Tribulation begins. Until then…

LOVE YOU, MOMMY… ALWAYS! Tonja Renee Condray Klein

Vada Belle Tignor Condray in 1950’s but possible how she looks now in Heaven!

By Tonja Condray Klein©04/17/2024

I watch History channel more than any other channel on cable. I was going to be a Computer Programmer and a History Teacher when I first graduated from Northridge High School in 1990 with scholarships. Sickness interfered, but I earned my Webpage Development Certificate later to make websites. I abandoned formal teaching but taught students in church instead. I research ancestry and study history books, biblical and historic texts, and take notes from the programs I watch. When I began using Ancestry as a new way to see history from personal and historical points of view, my love for learning the past in various times of existence was reinvigorated. Once I found links to so many people in my one lineage with different backgrounds, I was blown away by a reality that this white American chick has unexpected nationalities!

King Seleucus of the Seleucid Empire was my 72^nd great-grandfather (ggf), King Darius the Great of the Persian Empire (79^th ggf), King Belshazzar of Babylon (84^th ggf) and King Deioces of the Medes (85^th ggf) is one branch of same line. Different branch isn’t as white that far back either with Queen Mariamne the Hasmonean Princess as my 64^th great-grandmother (ffm), Priest Mattathias ben Maccabeus (70^th ggf), and Levite Priest Aaron (95^th ggf) brother to Moses (my ggu!) and backwards to Seth ben Adam (118^th ggf). I didn’t know I had a full line of Jewish lineage! I’m a Christian who supports Israel, but having those links all the way back is astonishing to me as an American. Watching other programs about archaeological discoveries in various places and times causes me to question many things of history in general!

How can supposed scientists and experts in many areas of study so easily dismiss the possible answers to HOW historical findings could have happened when humanity had not yet developed the ability to write until 3300 B.C (BCE)? They couldn’t have created the very precise buildings that express the ultra-complex astronomy, engineering, geometry, mathematics, and physics, so how did those with megalithic constructions happen? Of course, a recent HOW has turned into the concept of ‘aliens’ from outer space. What if it’s actually not ‘outer space’ but ‘interdimensional’ beings? Fallen angels could have been here long before Adam was created in -5509 B.C. (BCE), and they could have created all these things to confuse humanity once we developed the ability to ‘date’ items to use to discredit Judaism and Christianity.

What if ALL of the stories from all over the world are actually REAL HISTORY before writing began? I’m a fiction writer but making up stories doesn’t mean I can’t see what could be answers to questions that keep being asked even if others refuse to even consider possibilities of HOW. It’s normal for scientific minds to NOT consider anything their data can’t prove, but when so many historical writings are all thrown away as being delusions of people affected from religions, outlying conditions, or even beings from other planets then we have no way to confirm what happened before humanity could even do more than cave art. WHAT IF what has been dismissed really DID happen on the Earth BEFORE we could even document it or leave actual scientific proof that would survive until humanity understood it?

I don’t have a degree in any scientific discipline, but I READ, ANALYZE, AND COMPARE. I love the “Lost Treasures of Egypt” program on National Geographic as well as those on the History channel. My main frustration I’m sharing in this Op-Ed seems a little like that of historical research writer Graham Hancock. While Hancock’s published writings have been decried by some, his conclusions line up better with what could have REALLY happened instead of what various disciplines toe a line of acceptance with to gain continued funding for their digs. I honestly do understand that course, but I don’t think scientists should be led to conclusions that don’t match actual findings that would cause a real upheaval of perceived timelines that would change human understanding but explain full history more completely.

First of all, I’m a Christian believer and study Biblical Eschatology. I COMPLETELY BELIEVE IN THE HOLY JUDAIC TEXTS AND THE CHRISTIAN HOLY BIBLE. There is NO question for me about Adam being the very first human created by God Almighty the Creator that the Judaic and Christian writings explain. I am not a heretic or disclaim anything that the Judaic and Christian writings have given as a foundation for understanding existing reality. My timing point is that because of what Adam and those after him was able to do, there seems to have been some kind of BEFORE. I’m writing a more researched novel about this concept as I continue checking accepted evidence found that might have been misconstrued and mischaracterized to humans instead of to the actual beings that placed the things for us to find.

IF even some of the Ancient Aliens ‘claims’ in the “Government Investigations” episode about real world leaders ‘speaking’ and/or ‘meeting’ with ‘aliens’ decades ago and even into 2024 then ALL people need to pay attention since it’s not just politics or worldly governments at risk at this point. While there are believers of different religions all around the world who might accept ‘aliens’ as their ‘creators’, I want to also point out that the ‘aliens’ might actually be fallen angels that have worked ever since they defied God Almighty the Creator of the entire universe and possible dimensional levels that we know NOTHING about that could be used to deceive people who are willing to accept them since something like the ‘aliens’ from ‘planets’ seem to ‘make more sense’ and be ‘more acceptable’ than any other ‘god’ from heaven or hell.

Academia, Government, Science, Agnostic, and even Atheist individuals might accept an ‘alien’ leader before they’d ever accept Jesus Christ as the Christian Savior or Judaic Messiah. Regardless of the power that Jesus Christ did show with His life or WILL show on the final Return spoken of in the Christian book of Revelation, there will be some humans who would rather have an ‘alien’ power that encouraged evil practices denounced in God’s Holy Word since it was written and given to humanity. What I’m trying to get through to people reading this is that you can’t run from God Almighty when He returns to set up His Eternal Kingdom on Earth AFTER the Great Tribulation Ends. All believers in Jesus Christ will be taken off Earth to safety during that seven year period to then return with Jesus Christ back to Earth.

I love watching archaeological programs on Discovery and National Geographic. I love watching Ancient Aliens on History. What I don’t love is that very few Christian writers, teachers, and even scientists refuse to offer findings that actually question the ‘accepted’ reality of time on this Earth. There are a few that have and offer other possible timelines while various scientific disciplines only accept ONE finding even if it’s already been dismissed by ACTUAL reality that shows some things are UNPROVABLE with our current lack of written HISTORY during a time BEFORE ADAM. We have some writings deemed as ‘fiction’, ‘legend’, ‘mythology’, or ‘fairytale’ by even early Christian leaders. Some don’t think that’s possible but try to look up how early Christian leaders hid works in the Library at Alexandria millennium ago.

Do I have any proof? The Library of Alexandria was destroyed when Alexander the Great took over, so NO, but scientists can’t discount it either. I base my own BEFORE ADAM theory in part by the some things mentioned in the out of print novel BLACK IS BEAUTIFUL by Dr. Peter Ruckman. I don’t agree with him on much of anything else, but the documented accounts Dr. Ruckman used from 1985 eye-witnesses are possible even if some churches wouldn’t believe it because of it being too ‘fantastical’. I’ve given my opinion on how I feel about downgrading God Almighty. I’ll tell you in another way… GOD ALMIGHTY HAS NO BOUNDARIES OR LACK OF POWER! People today want the Marvel superheroes, and I understand the appeal in this world, BUT JESUS CHRIST IS BEYOND EVERY ONE OF THEM!

This battle between God Almighty the Creator of humanity and Satan (the fallen angel of worship who used to be Lucifer) with his fallen angels could have been going on for millions of years BEFORE ADAM. Is that statement without substantial documentation? Aren’t all of the Sciences’ theories without ways to prove them since we don’t have definitive timelines that SHOW ALL of what has happened on Earth? We can look at the historic ‘samples’, compare known facts to variables of possibilities, and even try manufacturing different dating processes to make things be as viable and exact as is humanly possible. WHAT WE CANNOT PROVE is that humanity did ANY construction on Earth without any help from extra-terrestrial OR interdimensional beings, whether Heavenly angel or fallen angel after Adam and Eve were created.

BEFORE ADAM could have been a completely different existence on Earth if the fallen angels had decided to make beings such as Neanderthals or Denisovans to misrepresent history and biology for when the Homo-Sapiens were created thousands to even millions of years later. Is it possible that God Almighty actually created those two groups of beings then created Adam and Eve? I don’t know, but that is possible too. The ‘Gospels’ state that all of the things that Jesus Christ did could not have been written down because it was so much. Is it possible that pre-history was so long it couldn’t have been written down for that reason too? Or maybe it’s related to whether Homo sapiens would choose to believe what the Bible DOES say regardless of other options given by other religions or worldly theories? It could be.

There are several different writers from various backgrounds that I have read over the years seeking information on historical writings. The more I have read the more I have come to realize that searching and finding historical writings can be completely impossible during certain times throughout records in the United States and all around the world. Some are easier than others if a person was known in history. Most people can’t find those links when doing Ancestry, but even so it shows that even more recent record-keeping doesn’t give as complete lineages as from B.C. (BCE)! Links that I have found (if records are correct) were for historic figures with continued lineages kept from further back in time than I’d ever expected. While women weren’t named as much as men were at times, it was still more than most in the 1400’s-1700’s.

My point is that if records are difficult to find for simple ancestry then how can humanity accept dates for ancient civilizations before 3000 B.C. (BCE)? Why can’t intellectual humans in 2024 look at the reality of ‘lost civilizations’ that are being discovered but can’t be explained yet? If that’s so, could scientific evidence from accepted disciplines have been created BEFORE ADAM? I have a strong ability to suspend disbelief, so my own imagination considers possibilities that not only explain the WHYS, WHENS, and WHATS that science can’t give to us, but also the HOWS Christian and Judaic writings are proven correct within the context of the alternate timelines of BEFORE ADAM. Written Christian texts once in Library of Alexandria might have explained some things that we will see again in the ‘End Times’ that are here now.

Giants, vampires, dwarves, fairies, and even demons of every kind could be coming to a city near you… or might already be here. Not possible? Think again. Read the Christian Holy Bible book of Revelation. There are passages many churches have been avoiding for decades or longer, and some avoid the book altogether. I’ve been studying the prophetic Christian books for forty years of my life now, but even saying that I’m still not an expert. I’m simply trying to challenge believers and non-believers alike to LOOK at what is happening in the world and compare it to Isaiah, Jeremiah, Ezekiel, Joel, the Gospels, Romans, Corinthians, Thessalonians, and Revelation. Beings from another dimension or created here more recently might be what was described in certain Revelation verses. READ the books and don’t be here for movie.

THAT’S WHAT THE OLD ONES SAY by Chief Joseph RiverWind is another book that offers the documented historical evidence found and testified about by witnesses in the past and some more recent. People who refuse to find out about these REAL parts of pre-history that are also mentioned in the Christian Holy Bible but not understood in present-day comparisons with movies that have been coming out since the beginning of cinema. “Too imaginary to be Christian,” some might say. Since I can see the possibility that Jesus Christ used fourth-dimensional Quantum Tunneling to walk on through the wall to get to His disciples after He rose again then it’s really disheartening to think that so many people who claim to BELIEVE in the RESSURECTION can’t see that Jesus Christ did SO MUCH MORE THAN IMAGINEABLE!

We are told in the Christian Holy Bible that there are so many things we can’t even comprehend yet that will be in Heaven. Jesus Christ was a storyteller with His Parables to try to reach the common people with the reality He was trying to do for ALL of humanity regardless of race, age, background, religion, or any other separating aspect since HE WANTS ALL WHO WILL BELIEVE. Those who claim to be Christians need to stop cherry-picking ONLY those YOU deem as worthy. JESUS DIED FOR ALL! As long as someone understands that Jesus Christ died for ALL in each person’s place, accepts Him as Personal Savior, and asks Him to begin remaking that person’s life THEN that soul is SAVED from the eternal damnation that EVERY soul unless that person accept the Gift of Salvation by Grace and through Faith in Jesus.

Simply believe and pray,” Father God of Creation, I come to You in the name of Your Son, Jesus Christ. I believe He is the Savior of the world and the Messiah of Israel. I ask You to forgive me for my sins born in my blood and then by my actions. Please begin the transformation of my being with the Holy Spirit taking His place in my soul again to restore my link to God Almighty by Faith in the blood-atoning sacrifice by Jesus Christ, His Resurrection to give me NEW LIFE, and His return to Heaven until the final days of the Grace Dispensation are over when He will appear in the clouds to take us to safety before the time of Jacob’s Trouble begins. I believe in the Promises You have given and will share my Faith with others for as long as I am here. In the name of Jesus Christ I pray, AMEN!” Now live for Jesus while we can!

By Tonja Condray Klein©03/31/2024

We all have our “Peter” moments, don’t we? Let’s be honest. As we approach the day of celebrating the day we are remembering the resurrection of Jesus Christ, we really should be examining ourselves and rededicating our lives to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ more now than ever before. This world is crazy in 2024, and we’re seeing things even worse than those written about happening in the Christian Holy Bible from ancient times before and at the time of Jesus Christ on Earth. Because of that, I can’t help but think about Simon Peter and the time right before the death of Jesus as spoken of in the Word of God Almighty and shown in movies now like THE BIBLE on History Channel this morning, Easter Sunday 2024. That version is emotionally affecting with its visual of what did happen to Jesus Christ long ago.

Simon Peter had been so strong to support his Savior, but even he had his moments of failure. I’ve always wished to be more like John the Revelator and believe more like Paul the Apostle with his writings, but when it comes to my own stupid lack of anger management I act more like Simon Peter more than the other two. I lose my temper over the stupidest situations and things, and even though I realize my idiocy it’s not before I react in ways I’m ashamed of in moments after. Can you imagine how Simon Peter felt as he watched all that happened to Jesus Christ during Holy Week after betrayal? I know how I feel each time I overreact or say something I regret, but Simon Peter actually claimed to not know Jesus at all. Well, isn’t that almost the same thing when we let our sin natures override the Grace that Jesus Christ bled for us to have?

That IS what I’m trying to point out on this Resurrection Day of Jesus Christ observed today in 2024. There is the reason EVERY SINGLE PERSON NEEDS JESUS CHRIST FOR SALVATION! We can’t do it ourselves no matter how hard we try every single day. Without the Grace given by the blood of Jesus Christ, no matter how much our hearts belong to Him, we can’t keep the sin nature from overwhelming our best intentions to show Love, Mercy, Forgiveness, and Grace that Jesus Christ wants to give to EACH AND EVERY SINGLE PERSON WHO WILL BELIEVE. No matter where you are from, what you have done, or how much you think you are not worthy enough to receive what He wants to give, He is the One Who already decided that on the Cross so you only have to SEEK HIM. ASK HIM. LET HIM. It’s that simple.

I watched the scene in that movie where Jesus was on the Cross and died FOR ME. He died for ALL OF US, but I MUST make it PERSONAL by accepting HIM as MY SAVIOR. Even when I fail Him, He still reminds me in ways most people would say He’d NEVER use. Well, I can only tell of my experiences PERSONALLY. I will stand before Him for MYSELF someday, so if I’m wrong about anything then I’ll find out at the judgment seat of Christ. What I know for sure is that HE WILL ACCEPT THE LEAST WORTHY before He would accept those that are only religious without the true Spirit of the Law filling them with the NEW WINE. I’m unworthy, but He still chose me to share with any who will read, listen, and pray to receive Him as Savior, Lord, King, and Son of God Almighty of Creation. Believe in Him to be saved!

“Father God of Creation, I come to you in the name of Jesus Christ. I believe that He is the Son of God Who came as Your Son born from a virgin to die on the Cross for my sins. Jesus Christ rose again from the dead by the Power of God Almighty, was seen by witnesses alive before He went back to Heaven to pray for us until He comes back to retrieve all of His people to take to safety before Great Tribulation begins on Earth. I ask for Your forgiveness for all of my failures, and I will try to complete whatever You call me to do in these last days. I might fail you, but I will do my best to be what You are calling me to become. Send me to those who need You. Protect me from those who would harm me. Give me the Gifts of Your Holy Spirit to show YOUR POWER so they will find their way to You. In the name of Jesus I pray. Amen.”

Read the Christian Holy Bible, pray as often as you can, find a Bible-teaching church, and let the Lord lead you to your personal field of Harvest that each has even if some refuse to go. I prefer the King James Version for personal study, but the New Living Translation is amazing to use for comparison and better understanding. I have notes for many prayers, sermons given by others, and basic teachings on my website: https://www.tribulationhelp.com. I have times when I am so weak that I can’t do the things I wish I could, but until my dying breath I will try to share the Gospel of Jesus Christ to all I can during the time we have left. I don’t know how long that will be, but I will try to live more like John in how I react, more like Paul in how I teach, and more like Jesus in how I love others. Jesus Christ is Messiah to Israel and Savior to all!

By Tonja Condray Klein©03/27/2024

I don’t know my Mom’s NEW name yet. Vada Belle Tignor Condray moved away on February, 27, 2024. Mom’s address used to be across from Hubby Ken and me on Thor Street in Riverside (Dayton), Ohio, America, on Earth. Now, I only know her new dimensional realm is Heaven. Each Christian will be given a NEW NAME in Heaven that ONLY God Almighty knows until He gives it to that person. I don’t know Mom’s new address yet even a month later today. There are untold mansions, and I don’t have a map. I’m unsure if states or zip codes are even used, but the Christian Holy Bible says there are streets. Do you know what I think her NEW street could be? The lyrics “I’m gonna lay down my burdens down by the Riverside…” might tell me that her mansion is on Riverside Lane, Heaven. I’ll find out for sure some sweet day.

Everything we can imagine that links to biblical scriptures is possible. She could have her mansion on Riverside there, but I think she would be at Jesus’ feet for a bit. “Look for me at Jesus’ feet” was a song she loved. Then again, she might have spent the night or two days there before our crazy family and relatives from ancestry dragged her off to tables with them to all taste foods of Heaven while they all shared stories about their lives as she shared hers. I don’t know who from history would go first, but I do know that Dad Truman and Son Alton, cousins Clyde and Betty Qualls, the Tignors, and the Lanes have all pulled over chairs too. Friends too many to name from recent then backwards for almost 93 years living will show up to visit with her happily. Heavenly tea all around will be a must in Mom Vada’s redeemed reality!

The only problem I foresee is that Mom’s southern hospitality could try to reassert itself even there, so the items wanted may simply show up on the tables, but Mom might have moments of thinking about doing all of their dishes. Yes, my imagination is highly annoying, but knowing her like I have for almost fifty-two years I think that could be like her as she is reunited with all of those loved ones in one place at one time for one purpose – welcoming Mom HOME. What an amazing time that has to be! Some people I never knew are there, and those I found on Ancestry would maybe be known through my research are there; but Mom KNOWS ALL OF THEM even as SHE IS KNOWN by all of them. Each has a new spiritual body until physical resurrection happens when Jesus Christ returns in the clouds to move ALL believers.

Those in Heaven could have gifts and abilities humans lost back in Eden when Adam and Eve fell from Creator God Almighty’s Grace. Jesus Christ came to reclaim all who believe in His blood being given for Salvation by Grace and through Faith in Him if each person will accept His promise. Mom Vada did. I did too, so I have hope to see her again, if not after the rest of my own lifetime then sooner when the Rapture (supernatural change then people moving) of Christian believers from Earth happens that seems to be closer every single day. WATCH THE FIG TREE. For the last forty years of my life, Israel’s part of scriptural prophetic End Times that were foretold millennia ago is happening in real time. I’m unable to accept what other ‘preachers’ are teaching now since much of it is the very opposite of TRUE spiritual reality.

Mom KNEW what she believed. I KNEW that she KNEW, and on the evening of 02/26/2024 I sung to her at her STNA great-granddaughter Brook’s place where Hospice care was being given, talked with her about us being okay if she wanted to go, hugged her then kissed her forehead after recording her saying, “Goodnight Sam” before I said, “Goodnight Ralph”, and then I went home. I didn’t know I was saying goodbye for good in this plane of existence, but Mom passed in her sleep the way she, my sister Janice, me, and most of our family wanted… peacefully picked up by a spiritual transport to Heaven. That might sound fantastical or even fictional to some, but I believe it’s actually realistic when it comes to any believer in Jesus Christ as personal Savior, Lord, King, and Son aspect of Creator God Almighty. It’s just supernatural.

Is it possible that spiritual leaders have embellished the actual powers of the Creator God Almighty? If anything, I think they have DIMINISHED the actual majesty and Power of the One True Living God of Creation out of fear or misled sensibilities that such things could be seen as ‘magic’. Who in their right mind would want their God to be so mystical and powerful to actually be real? I DO! I have been witness to and instrument of the use of the Gifts of the Holy Spirit of God Almighty in churches, and I tell you now with every bit of my sanity and scientific research acumen: GOD’S GIFTS ARE REAL. I pray in tongues every day. I’ve been used in healing and with messages and interpretations since thirteen. I WAS NOT TAUGHT HOW TO OR BRAINWASHED TO DO IT. The Christian God Almighty IS the Miracle Maker STILL.

Than why didn’t He heal Mom Vada? I don’t know. She had fought with all of her Faith and her personal grit, but she was no longer able to do things she had loved to do. She had always never wanted to become a ‘burden’, and although none of us felt like she was, she was living in bed by then. Maybe God had thought her race had been run and decided we needed to let her go to her place with Him and those our family love. Anyone who knows me at all knows how much I’ve always loved my Mom Vada. Telling her that she could go if she wanted to was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do, but it was the right thing to do FOR HER. We had the funeral and tried to make it be a celebration of her life and family. My world has grown dimmer without her. I have NEVER been without her in my almost fifty-two years, and it really hurts.

I have to still go through her things in the mobile home across from ours, get things of hers to different members of our family who want to keep them, and put things I can’t part with into storage for safe keeping. There’s no treasure or valuables; only memories live here now of the 92-year-and-ten-month-old woman as a wife, mother, grandmother, great-grandmother, great-great-grandmother, sister, aunt, cousin, babysitter, and friend. We will remember and share stories of her with those who will be after us if time goes on. Yet she is NOW sharing her stories with those who saw some of her life through the windows of Heaven and celebrated even more when she came Home. I share their joy in her finding her NEW HOME. My tears are for ME now because I MISS the HER before the cancer. Love You, Mommy… ALWAYS.